Sometimes I have the feeling that sex has dropped me. But it seems I have not got it yet, or I just don’t want to accept the fact of it. Can you help me to understand what is going on?
Sarjano, the Western mind has completely forgotten that sex is not life; hence everyone born in the West carries in his unconscious the idea that the moment sex is finished, all is finished. This is not true. On the contrary, the moment sex falls away from you, real life begins. On the graveyard of sex grows the mystic rose. It is not only happening to you, it is going to happen to every sannyasin who is honestly and sincerely seeking the truth.
Sex is so childish, so stupid that if you take a photograph of yourself making love, you will be surprised to note a few things The woman you are making love to has closed her eyes because she cannot see you in such a stupid activity. The only way is to keep the eyes closed and let this ugly moment pass. People have chosen the night to make love – except a few idiots. And you will see yourself doing such gymnastics, huffing and puffing and perspiring over the poor woman – and you are not even ashamed that the fragile woman is under you and you are on top!
But you are so much engaged in the futile activity that you are not aware of it. In fact, in a few cities in Europe and America there are restaurants, hotels, which have a very special attraction….
I have heard about one man who asked, “What is this special attraction?”
And the manager said, “The fee is high, but if you are interested and you have the money, you will get one of the most gorgeous woman to make love to.”
He could not resist the temptation, so he paid the money and he was led into a room. The woman was certainly gorgeous, and as he started making love, he started hearing a few giggles from this side, a few giggles from that side. He could not understand what was happening. He has made love many times, but giggles, and from all sides?
When the lights came on, he could see that those people had made a great arrangement. There were holes around the room – it was a round room – and people were watching him through magnifying glass. That’s why those giggles were coming. He said, “My God, these restaurant people are cheating!”
He went back and he said, “What is all this? You never told me.”
The manager said, “The fee for watching the show is much more. There is no harm done. Tomorrow you can watch the show. And what is a show if there is no watcher?”
He paid the money because he felt that the people who had been giggling were enjoying more than he had been. And the next day he was sitting by a magnifying hole and he enjoyed it so much he started giggling himself.