Chuang Tzu once dreamt that he had become a butterfly. In the morning he was very much depressed. His friends asked, “What has happened? – we have never seen you so depressed.”
Chuang Tzu said, “I am in a puzzle, I am at a loss, I cannot understand. In the night, while asleep, I dreamt that I had become a butterfly.”
So the friends laughed: “Nobody is ever disturbed by dreams. When you awake the dream has disappeared, so why are you disturbed?”
Chuang Tzu said, “That is not the point. Now I am puzzled: if Chuang Tzu can become a butterfly in the dream, it is possible that now the butterfly has gone to sleep and is dreaming that she is Chuang Tzu.” If Chuang Tzu can become a butterfly in the dream, why not the other? – the butterfly can dream and become Chuang Tzu. So what is real – whether Chuang Tzu dreamt that he has become a butterfly or the butterfly is dreaming that she has become Chuang Tzu? What is real? Rainbows are there. You can become a butterfly in the dream. And you have be-come a mind in this bigger dream you call life. When you awaken you don’t achieve an awakened state of mind, you achieve a no-state of mind, you achieve no-mind.
What does no-mind mean? It is difficult to follow, but sometimes unknowingly you have achieved it, but you may not have recognized it. Sometimes, just sitting ordinarily, not doing anything, there is no thought in the mind. When there is no thought where is the mind? When there is no thought there is no mind, because mind is just the process of thinking. It is not a substance, it is just a procession. You are here, I can say a crowd is here, but is there really something like a crowd? Is a crowd substantial or are only individuals there? By and by individuals will go away. Then will there be a crowd left behind? When individuals have gone, there is no crowd.
The mind is just like a crowd; thoughts are the individuals. Because thoughts are there continuously you think the process is substantial. Drop each individual thought and finally nothing is left. There is no mind as such, only thinking.
But thoughts are moving so fast that between two thoughts you can-not see the interval. But the interval is always there. That interval is you. In that interval there is neither Chuang Tzu nor the butterfly – because the butterfly is a sort of mind and Chuang Tzu is also a sort of mind. A butterfly is a different combination of thoughts, Chuang Tzu is again a different combination, but both are minds. When the mind is not there, who are you – Chuang Tzu or a butterfly? Neither. And what is the state? Are you in an enlightened state of mind? If you think you are in an enlightened state of mind this is again a thought, and when thought is there you are not. If you feel that you are a buddha, this is a thought. The mind has entered; now the process is there, again the sky is clouded, the blueness lost. The infinite blueness you can see no more.