Osho,
What is the difference between Judas, the only intelligent disciple of Jesus, betraying him, and Siddha, the vice-chancellor of our meditation university, and other influential leaders and powerful people of the commune, like Prabodhi, Deeksha, Shiva, Makima, Somendra, Sushila, Divya, etcetera going against you?

There is a great difference. Judas betrayed Jesus, nobody can betray me – because Jesus asked for faith, and I don’t ask for any faith from you.

Jesus asked people to believe in him; he is the savior. I do not ask you to believe in me but to believe in yourself, because nobody can save you except yourself. There is no other savior than yourself.

How can you betray me?

You can only betray yourself.

That’s what Sheela and her gang have done. They have betrayed their own spiritual growth.

And the remaining people – you mentioned Siddha, Deeksha, Makima – these people were forced to leave by Sheela. They still love me, as they have always loved me.

Just the other day Richard came back from Santa Fe, the city of the camels, and he was surprised that they are all immensely happy that Sheela has left, and they all want to come back. Hundreds of others who have left will be coming back. This time they will find a totally different climate, fresh air. Now one can breathe; otherwise, people were getting suffocated.

They tried hard to live under Sheela and her gang, but there is a limit to human patience. Finally they decided it is better to leave. How much can you tolerate humiliation, and humiliation by someone who was nobody. Sheela was just a waitress in a hotel in America before she came to me. And I made her a queen of a whole kingdom of sannyasins all over the world.

It was great for Makima to have tolerated her for almost three years. Makima comes from one of the most super-rich families, and Sheela was forcing her to drive trucks. She had always been chauffeured, and now she was driving big trucks; but she accepted it out of love for me, because she wanted to remain here. Amrit, her boyfriend, was a doctor.

But Sheela’s assistant, and the mastermind in this whole gang of fascists, was Puja, who has been harassing all the doctors, all the nurses, everybody, in every possible way. She would write prescriptions and force the doctors to sign them. It is illegal. Patience is one thing, but to be forced to do illegal things is not right.

Puja herself was capable of prescribing medicines – she was a perfectly educated nurse, had a license to prescribe medicines just like any doctor, but she was absolutely cunning.