Sadness is not anybody’s nature, just a mood, a habit, a pattern; it can be broken. It is because you have chosen it, but the way is not to fight it. The way is to transcend. So accept it. Be really sad for three days. If you find yourself becoming happy, immediately become sad, [laughter] because you have to follow the sign, otherwise people will ask what you are doing. If you catch yourself getting a little smile or something, feel guilty. [much laughter] Three days…and then you come and report.
It is just an old habit that you slip into again and again. A habit needs unconsciousness, a habit lives in unconsciousness. If you become conscious of it, it disappears. So for three days be consciously sad, consistently sad, persistently sad. Don’t go here and there; immediately catch hold and come back and be sad. And then you report. You will fail.
[laughing] I already have!
I just finished the Primal and the Enlightenment, and in both groups I had very rich experiences. In both groups I was thrown back on myself…I feel a wanting to hold onto that, and I know I can’t.
Don’t use the words hold onto; don’t cling to it. Just allow it to be there. Relax into it but don’t try to hold it there, otherwise you will miss because you will become tense. Just relax. Remember it. Sometimes sitting silently, enjoy it, bring it back, but don’t cling.
It will slip many times – let it slip, nothing is wrong. Don’t force it, otherwise it will become a heavy trip and the whole beauty will be lost. And if you miss sometimes, you will feel very very sad and frustrated. Never do that. You have come to an insight – now it is yours. Why be worried? Whenever you want it, it will be there. You follow me? You know what it is…you have tasted it. It is something within you – nobody can take it away.
Just enjoy it, otherwise if you try to cling to it you will destroy it. That’s how the mind goes on destroying all that is beautiful. It makes everything ugly: it reduces everything to ugliness.
Sometimes just looking at the sky, enjoy it; walking on the street, enjoy it – then forget all about it. Don’t make it a constant effort, because there is no need. There is no need to become obsessed. It will become deeper and deeper and deeper. Then you will see that there is no need to think about it at all. Do other things. Don’t make it a constant effort otherwise it will be a disturbance in doing other things. Then other things will seem as if they are your enemies, because then it will be a competition. Life is rich because there are so many things in it.
And this is always there, it is a constant fire. It is you.