Dance. When the dance really possesses you, when there really is a dance, the dancer is no more, the dancer has disappeared; he doesn’t exist. The dance is so tremendously real that the unreal has to disappear before it. The unreal cannot face the real; the false cannot confront the real; the lie cannot face the truth; the darkness cannot encounter light. When the real arises – and the real is when you are part of the whole, whether in laughter, in dancing, in love – whenever you are part of the whole, the real is. Separate, you are maya. One with the whole, you are God.
“I often desire to have an isolated, secure place to allow surrender.” When you are alone, a false type of religiosity arises. Because whenever you are alone, there is nobody to provoke your anger, nobody to create an opportunity where you can become sad, nobody to bring your own false faces before you. You are alone: anger does not arise. Not that anger has disappeared – simply the situation for anger is not there. You are full of anger, but nobody is there to insult you, to hurt you. Only the opportunity is missing. Come back to the world: live fifty years in the Himalayas – when you come back to the world, immediately you will find anger is there, as fresh as ever; even maybe more powerful now, because of fifty years accumulated anger, accumulated poison. Then one becomes afraid to come back to the world.
Go to the Himalayas: you will see many people hanging around there. Cowards, they cannot come back to the world. What sort of purity is this, which is afraid? What sort of celibacy is this, which is afraid? What sort of reality is this, which is afraid of maya, of illusion? What sort of light is this, which is afraid of darkness: that it comes to the dark, the darkness will be powerful and may destroy it? Has darkness ever destroyed any light? But they go on hanging around. The more they hang around there, the more they become incapable of coming back to the world – because there in the Himalayas they can have their beautiful image: nobody else to destroy it. In the world it is difficult. Somebody, from somewhere, treads to your toe; somebody, from somewhere, hurts you. You have to drop anger. My whole effort is so that you change. Don’t try to change the scene, please change yourself. The change of the scene not going to help anybody; it has never helped anybody.
And you think, “Meditations several hours a day…” Even if you meditate twenty-four hours a day it is not going to help unless meditation becomes a way of life – not that you meditate. Whether you meditate one hour, or two hours, or three hours, or six hours, or many hours – you may meditate twenty-four hours: you will go mad, but you will not attain to samadhi.
Samadhi is when you completely forget what meditation is. You don’t meditate; just the way you live is meditative. The way you may, the way you walk, the way you eat: that becomes meditative. Meditation becomes a quality of your life; it is not a question of quantity. Don’t be quantitative. Don’t think that if you meditate more, then more meditation will happen to you…foolish. The more is not the question – quality, not quantity.
Meditation is not money that you can go on gathering and piling up. Meditation is a way of being: you don’t pile it up, you cannot accumulate it, it is not a wealth. It is the way you are.