During the discourses you gave in Pune, you were often talking about surrender. When you were in silence Sheela was misusing the sense of surrender to make people obedient, and then, even hearing the words “just surrender” made me feel closed. Now, being here with you, the word surrender does not only reach my mind but my being, and I feel comfortable with its true meaning. Would you please talk about surrender?
It is not only the word surrender…there are many words. When heard, they have one meaning; when experienced, they have a totally different meaning. And the problem is how to make you comprehend the experienced meaning through the word. It may be surrender, it may be love, it may be trust.
You heard me talk about surrender – that certainly it seems to be that surrender means submission, that surrender means a kind of spiritual slavery, that surrender means you do not have any say even about your own life; somebody else commands it. Then surrender means simply to follow, to believe, never doubt, never inquire. It hurts. All these meanings hurt. They hurt your individuality, they hurt your self-respect, they hurt your freedom. That’s why it was possible in the commune that while I was silent the word surrender could be misused.
But when you are near me – then I am not talking about surrender at all – just your nearness, my presence and your presence, falling in a synchronicity….
There are two light bulbs here – separate, individual – but their light is meeting everywhere in the room; their light is filling the room as one. Presence is something like that. It is not material; if it was material there would be conflict. The lights of these two bulbs have not drawn a line between them: “Up to here is my territory and don’t dare to interfere with my territory.” They don’t have a territory. You can have hundreds of lights and there will be no conflict, no quarrel, because light is a quality. There is no conflict.
Anything material occupies a certain space; then nothing else can occupy the same space. If this chair is here, then no other chair can occupy the same space. But about light it is different – the space is the same. And there can be a hundred candles occupying the same space – not the candles, but the light; not your body but your presence.
I am not talking about surrender, but you are experiencing it. It is no longer a destruction of your self-respect, no longer destructive of your individuality. It has nothing to do with obedience; it has nothing to do with any submission.
The word surrender comes from the vocabulary associated with war. When two countries are fighting, the country which is losing finally has to surrender. It is not a beautiful word. Its associations are ugly. One becomes victorious, another is defeated and erased.
Alexander the Great conquered the frontier land of India. The man who was fighting him was a man of immense insight and immense power – not physical. Alexander had a bigger army and more developed techniques of destruction.