The first question:
Jesus says, “Seek and you will find.” Does a desireless search exist?
Jesus was in a very unfortunate situation: he had learned all the secrets in the East and he was introducing something that had never existed in the Jewish tradition before – that was his crime. The orthodox, the traditional, the conventional mind could not understand him.
Lao Tzu was far more fortunate – he had the right people to talk to. Buddha was blessed – he could say things in as subtle a way as possible. In that sense Jesus was hoping against hope. It was a great challenge and he took the risk – he sacrificed his life. But he was misunderstood: it was bound to happen, it was inevitable. Whenever you introduce a new truth, you have to suffer for it, but it is a joy to suffer in the service of truth.
Jesus could not even say the whole truth – that would have been too much. So whatsoever statements have come down in the name of Jesus are only half the story; the other half has never been told. Jesus could not say it because of the Jews he was surrounded with, and Christians have been clinging to those half-truths for two thousand years.
For example, this statement is only a half-truth: “Seek and ye shall find.” The other half, which has been said by Lao Tzu, is far more important; without it the first half becomes not only meaningless but dangerous. Lao Tzu says, “Do not seek and you will find. Do not seek and you have found it already.” Both statements will look contradictory to each other; they are not.
The beginning of the pilgrimage starts with searching, seeking, inquiring; there is no other way to begin. Unless you inquire what is the meaning of life, unless you go in search of the essential core of existence, you will never move, you will not even take the first step. Hence, the search has to begin. But if you continue searching forever and ever, if your search never comes to an end, you will remain in the mind. It is the mind which searches.
Search is also a subtle desire. Even the inquiry into knowing is ambitious. The very desire to achieve something – money, power, prestige, meditation, God, whatsoever it is, any desire, any ambition – leads you into the future; it distracts you from the present. And the present is the only reality, the only truth there is.