A woman is a waiting, she is a womb. Her body, her being is a patience, passivity. And the same happens at the higher level of spirituality: there also she is a waiting. And a disciple has to become like a woman. He has to fall in deep love with the master, and then there will be a meeting, a merging of higher spiritual beings. And that merging is just like a sexual penetration; again more existential, absolutely non-bodily. And from that meeting the disciple is born again; he becomes pregnant from that meeting, pregnant with himself. Now he carries his own new being in his womb. The whole apprenticeship, the time when he is near the master, is the time to carry the pregnancy. It can be done only in deep trust; if you doubt it is impossible, because then you will defend, then you will make an armor around yourself, then you will try to protect yourself.
whoever drinks from my mouth shall become as I am and I myself will become he, and the hidden things shall be revealed to him.
Once surrender has happened completely, the master becomes the door for you. Then a different world of light, life and bliss opens. Hindus have called it sat chit anand. The true existence, the true consciousness, and the true bliss, sat chit anand, becomes possible for you. The master becomes the door, and once you have attained this you are enlightened. Now you can help others to pass through your fire. Now you can help others to have a glimpse of the absolute, or to reach the ultimate and be dissolved in it.
But before you can become a master you have to be totally a disciple. Before you can teach you have to learn, and before you can help you have to be helped. You have to allow somebody to help you deeply. And that deep help is possible only when you are not there, because you are the disturbance, you are the hindrance. You continuously create barriers for your own growth in fear of the unknown. You cling to the known and then there can be no meeting, because the master is one who is unknown. You remain in the world of the known, the past; the master is the unknown. And a meeting of two points is impossible: the unknown meeting the known. The known will dissolve, the known will burn, the known will be no longer found, just like the darkness dissolves, disappears, when the sun enters.
Be a darkness before a master: humble, knowing your ignorance well, ready to surrender and wait. Then Jesus can transform you, Buddha can transform you. In fact, Jesus and Buddha are just catalytic agents. Your surrender transforms you, they are just excuses. If you can surrender even without a Buddha, without a Jesus around you, if you can surrender to the cosmos, the same will happen. Then it will be difficult for you to surrender because there will be no object to surrender to. It will be more difficult. That’s why I say Buddha, Jesus, they are just excuses.
And then I would like to tell you of one very strange phenomenon that sometimes happens: sometimes you become enlightened even surrendering to a wrong master; the master himself is not enlightened. It has happened, it can happen again, because the basic thing is to surrender. The transformation comes through surrendering, the master is just an object. Right or wrong does not make much difference.