You have been divided enough, so don’t do it anymore, mm? This means that no judgments are to be made, because if you judge, division starts. For example, you may be talking to a friend in deep conversation, and suddenly you feel like being silent, you want to stop talking, right in the middle of the sentence. Stop there, and don’t even complete the rest of the sentence, because that will be going against nature.
But then judgment comes in. One feels embarrassed about what others will think if you suddenly stop talking in the middle of the sentence. If you suddenly become silent they will not understand, so you somehow manage to complete the sentence. You pretend to show interest, and then you finally escape. That is very costly, and there is no need to do it. Just say that conversation is not coming now, you can ask to be excused, and be silent.
For a few days perhaps it will be a little troublesome, but by and by people will begin to understand. Don’t judge yourself as to why you became silent; don’t tell yourself that it is not good. Everything is good! In deep acceptance, everything becomes a blessing. This is how it happened – your whole being wanted to be silent – so follow it. Just become a shadow to your totality, and wherever it goes, you have to follow, because there is no other goal. You will begin to feel a tremendous relaxation surrounding you.
Life has infinite grace, but we have missed it because of the conflict. Grace brings beauty. It simply means the aura that surrounds total relaxation. If you move spontaneously, each moment decides how it will be. This moment is not going to decide for the next, so you simply remain open-ended. The next moment will decide its own being; you have no plan, no pattern, no expectation.
Today is enough; don’t plan for tomorrow, or even for the next moment. Today ends, and then tomorrow comes fresh and innocent, and opens with no manipulator. It opens of its own accord, and without the past. This is grace.
Watch a flower opening in the morning. Just go on watching…that is grace. There is no effort at all – it just moves according to nature. Or watch a cat awakening – effortlessly, with a tremendous grace surrounding it. The whole of nature is full of grace, but man has lost the capacity to be graceful because of division.
So just move, and let the moment decide, don’t try to manage it. This is what I call let-go – and everything happens out of it. So give it a chance.
I’m sharing a love with Nirakar and lots of things are happening to me. I’m experiencing lots of new things…I feel okay, sometimes not so okay. But the thing that I’m experiencing with Nirakar is like meditation but stronger than any time I’ve done meditation. I feel I’m losing myself and I feel helpless, wondering if I have to do anything.