If, in a still and calm and silent moment, I whisper, “Kill me now,” will you do it?
Anand Rakesh, I have every intention to kill you, because without killing you, you can’t have a new life. You will go on living the old, rotten personality, which keeps you company and gives you a certain consolation. But the company is of misery and the consolation is only a hope; it never materializes. Just because it is old, you feel at ease with it.
Howsoever dark and howsoever painful, man has the greatest adaptability. He can adjust in any situation, if he becomes accustomed to it. It needs only time.
You can see it happening in poor countries like India. Nearabout five hundred million people are starving, but they won’t revolt, they won’t bring a revolution. They will starve and die, hoping for some god’s messenger, avatara, some savior to save them.
It is strange how blind man can be. So many saviors have come to the earth, so many messengers have come – not a single one has been able to effect any change in human life. On the contrary they have made it more miserable, because they imposed unnatural systems of thought which go against your very potentiality. But the hope continues. It is the hope that keeps the starving person from revolting.
And secondly, this poverty, this hunger has become so much part of his life, almost his life-style, that he does not conceive of any possibility of another kind of life. He will go on living, but he has been living for centuries in starvation, undernourishment, in slavery. It is simply unbelievable how man adapts to the old, to the acquainted, to the known, and is afraid of the unknown. He may have nothing to lose, but still the fear of the unknown is very deep-rooted in man.
Perhaps it is from your very birth that the fear of the unknown settles in. And that is the bottom of your unconsciousness. Every child is born into an unknown world. He has to leave the known world of the mother’s womb; reluctantly he leaves it. He makes as much effort to cling to it as possible. It is just by nature – it is impossible for him to remain there any longer – that he has to come out. But he comes trembling, not knowing where he is going, what kind of existence, what kind of life. He is accustomed to the life of the womb. Hence the first thing that he experiences is the fear of the unknown. And that fear remains haunting him all his life.
You are asking me, Rakesh – but you may not have looked deeply into your question – “IF…” And remember, I don’t like ifs and buts, so this is not a true thing that you are asking; you are simply supposing; it is hypothetical. If means the beginning of a hypothesis.